So it is that our lives unfold with the Brilliance and Magnificence that we allow. We are the gracious receivers of a life that gives and gives and gives itself to us. IT can only give to us what It can give through us. By this I mean that we are responsible for the practice of opening ourselves and therefore making ourselves available to as much good as we can possibly handle. Yoga was a brilliant experience this morning, an experience that I had because I showed up. I showed up because my roommates had this idea to start their Sunday morning with a yoga class at a beautiful studio right on the river. They decided not to go at the last minute but I went anyway. I showed up for my opening and my good. I showed up for my discipline and my goals of health, wholeness and harmony. It’s so easy to get into a pattern of not showing up, of isolation and therefore desolation. That’s where my dis-ease took me and quite frankly, I am not sober to live a mediocre life. I am sober to continue with my discipline which breeds bliss and freedom like I have never felt before. Through my practice I open the front of my heart and the back of my heart and my hips and my inner eye and my inner ear and slowly, slowly I begin to know myself more intimately and I begin to “be onto myself” when I am out of alignment and begin to identify and understand where I am coming from when I say things or take certain actions. From this place of awareness I begin to know what to release and what to keep and I begin to be more open and more available to Divinity. You see, through some mighty challenges over the last few days, my ego kicked up something nasty and I found myself becoming increasingly closed off and although as the challenge increases, I increased my spiritual practice, I still found myself identifying with my ego and my need for things to be perfect and ultimately to be completely honest I found myself less than accepting of people that I deeply care for. This was an old familiar feeling and although there are healthy boundaries available here there is never a need for me to judge another and take their inventory. I have stepped back now and recognized an area for growth and healing and boldly say thank you for revealing something within me that needs healing. I now have something beautiful to work on now. Into consciousness I go to forgive and release these old ways that are definitely not serving me or anyone else. I am dedicated to opening and getting out of my own way. I yield to Spirit.
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