“My biggest failure in life is trading what I want the most
for what I want at the moment…”
written on the back of a quote note that an old timer gave me in the
noon meeting today
I didn’t have the chance to stop Rita and thank her again
for gifting me with this quote. I
say “again” because this same old timer with about a million years of sobriety gave me a card with the same
quote on it a few years back during another period of sobriety. I carried that card in my wallet and
found it helpful at the most perfect times along my journey. I even pulled it out at treatment and
shared it with a small group. The
fact is that I had carried it throughout my relapse because it makes so much
sense to me. I get it that there
are those who need to take more risks in life and learn to soak up the moment
for what it is and not be so controlled by the ir plans but for this alcoholic
I have a large enough dose of that in my inherent nature and I think….no, I know…
that there are countless times when I threw away my progress toward something I
wanted in the long run for what I wanted in the moment. Sometimes it wasn’t even about what I
wanted in a moment but a matter of chosing anger in a moment verses peace in
the long run or chosing to want to eat a chocolate bar and sit on the couch in
the moment verses my long term goal of physical, emotional, metnal and
spiritual health and fitness. I
also get it too that we as alcoholics are learning to nurture and care for
ourselves with some tenderness after abusing ourselves for so long but
something I often ask myself now is “am I chosing what I want in this moment
over what I really want most.”
Brothers and Sister s I invite you to join me in taking Rita’s quote and
seeing if it can’t be the platform to launch ourselves to our next level of
greatness. Take a breath and
breathe that in for a moment.
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